It has been a long long time since I last updated my journal so I thought, why not update it and tell everyone why I haven't been that active lately.
I know my last journal was kind of sad and unfortunately this one is going to be a little sad as well.
My parents are going through a divorce now and my father remains at our farm. But, unlike my mother he doesn't like animals. So my mother and I were forced to sell our ponies and now we even have to find a place for our dog. So yeah, the main reason why I don't post horse stock anymore is: I don't have any horses/ponies left to take pictures of except for Cosette. I really wanted to keep Cosette, so I begged my father to look after her until I find a place for her where she can stay. I live in Amsterdam and my fathers house is a 2 hr drive so I can't really look after her myself, even though I really wished I could. I don't know how things are going to be from now on, but my aunt said that if I can't find anything, Cosette can stay at her home for the winter so I'm just going to live day by day and just hope I can keep her as long as possible, until my mother has found a new home with some space for her. I know it does sound a little selfish that I want to keep her even though I can't take care of her right now, but it is all just very emotional for me, especially when we had to sell Lindy. I got Lindy when I was twelve years old and she was my best friend. When I was sad, angry or really excited about something I'd go to her stable and just talk to her and it always seemed like she understood me. Cosette is Lindy's daughter and she is just like a copy of Lindy. She looks the same, she does the same weird things with her lips after eating, she is just as bubbly and energetic as her mother.. It is just too early to let go. I know, in the end, it is probably going to be impossible to keep her, but for now I'm just enjoying her as much as I can, I go home every time I can afford to leave Amsterdam and I'm doing my absolute best to get her a place to stay.
Also, as I don't really have the money to travel (I have to save everything I earn working for school, books and my apartment), I also don't have any nature stock photos coming anytime soon.
I'm sorry guys.
Let's just hope things will get better from now on
I am going to do my best to do a happy journal entry next time!
Love and kisses,